The night before you were born – My beautiful Yves
This time four years ago we were expecting our first bundle of joy. That baby was you my girl. I was 4 days past my due date, wondering if I had been feeling a little baby girl or baby boy kicking me all over the past 40 weeks, feeling happy, heavy, anxious, excited and a whole lot of emotions rolled into a big ball. Little did we know that you were to make your debut the next day on the 27th October 2010 at 8:33pm, weighing a beautiful 8lb 9oz. (Birth story will be on my blog soon)
I remember feeling overwhelmed, doubting myself for how I would cope in labour, thinking the worst, wondering if I was prepared enough, would I bond with tou? Would I feel that ‘rush of love’? Would I cope with it all? I think every pregnant woman experiences these feelings towards the end, hormones all over the place, tiredness, all of which caused a lot if self-doubt in my case.
I remember that daddy & I went for a little drive at this time, we drove around a local village, parked in a small train station car park, I shared all of my worries, sobbed a little with him and Daddy did what he does best and he made me feel like I was capable of all those things, that we were going to be embarking on a new wonderful life as a family of three and that everything would be more than ok. I remember this so clearly, and it made me feel completely ready. Ready to meet you.
The moment you came into our lives when I gave birth was the most spectacular and magical day of my life. You were the first person to turn me into soneones Mummy, your Mummy. I will be eternally grateful for you in my life Yvie-Mae.
Today, you had your birthday party with your family and friends, you had a brilliant time! (Will be posting her actual birthday and party soon). At bed time, you got a little emotional and said, you didn’t want to go to bed, as when you wake up for your birthday you will be a ‘big girl’, and you didn’t want to be a ‘big girl’. Then daddy & I explained to you that even though you are growing, you will always been our darling baby girl, forever the little baby who made us parebts for the very first time.
I love you so much my sweet girl, with the beat heart and the fire in my soul, forever & always X x x