Life and blogging with a fresh perspective.
You have to experience the bad to appreciate the good even more. If I’d have known more about blogging sooner, then I would’ve started a lot earlier on, documenting more productively – but, I am very thankful for all the diary extracts I have in my hand-written personal diaries, all the pictures I’ve taken, movies I’ve made still yet to be shared here. I’m definitely going to share some previous things from the dates before I ‘officially’ started blogging here as I love to write about them and it could potentially help someone else who’s needing a lift, some inspiration or simply someone to relate to. So the dates will be a little out. I only started finding the time to put in so much more effort last year. I started to understand and grasp the way of blogging, the technical side, the social side, and the community. A community that I have grown to be so fond of.
Everyone is so friendly (mostly everyone).
I find myself so busy sometimes, pre-school runs, being a home-maker, tidying up, cooking, all the other things that are rolled into Motherhood, including lack of sleep, equalling lack of energy some days.
On top of all of this, I am trying to find a good balance of life. I want to be a better girlfriend, making more of an effort to still live a life with their Daddy aside from just being a parent – without feeling guilty. I do struggle with this as I am hardly ever without my little ones, so for me this is something new, and will take time to adapt to and not feel like a ‘bad mum’ for it. I want to remember that I matter too, my life as Natalie. To not let my passions take a step back because life just takes over – no matter how much I adore it,
and some times it just gets too much.
Of course everyone needs their own time, but some days I would set up crafts for the girls, and think “Right, i’ve set that for them, now I can quickly blog this bit, edit those photos etc.) and then I would be thinking the same thing in the evenings when they’re all in bed, it’s quite addictive really, in good and bad ways. I know I want to better myself but its just finding the better balance of it all.
Aside from the world of blogging with a new perspective, I want to be there for my children, my partner, myself a bit more instead of trying to do too much. I love my little world of writing my words, but living life is more important. I love the unrehearsed moments when I can really connect with my children, which also reaches a better connection with myself.
So that being said, I am going to continue to write what I love, what fuels me & inspires me.
Doing less, with more focus.
Then theres the comparison.. ‘Comparison is the thief of joy’.
I’ve read before, and it is definitely true. Once you allow yourself to be sucked into a comparison mind-set it’s hard to get out. Let’s face it we’ve all been there, I have just come to realise that you will never get anywhere comparing yourself to others successes. Everyone has different lives, different circumstances, talents and so on. I believe the way around this is to feel inspired as opposed to down in the dumps about ‘not being a top 100 blogger’, ‘the best photographer’ etc.
I am not going to give in and feel weak by comparisons anymore.
I felt this way a lot growing up, never sure of myself around others, which led to doubt when I was on my own, suffering in my own little world, wondering who I was.
I love to feel inspired, and its a much better feeling than comparing myself to others.
They are themselves.