Almost there! Week 39 and a little catch up.
So here we are half way through my 39th week of growing this wonderful baby in my tummy.
The past few weeks have really been tough health wise, it’s been quite relentless with very worrying anaemia leaving me weak and breathless, a fever and chesty cold, and more recently a tooth abscess which I’m on antibiotics for. I’m never unwell usually (touch wood) and even though in my previous pregnancies I have suffered with anaemia, it’s never been this bad for this long plus with the other factors bundled in. I feel like I’ve been such a moany sod at times, but it has been hard, especially when all I want is to be happy and healthy for the kids too. We’ve done well though, enjoying time at home for the most part as its where I feel most at ease at the moment.
This photo was from 38 weeks and a few days.
So with the anaemia not progressing quick enough, almost two weeks ago I had my very first iron infusion which went okay, I had a bit of a wobble five minutes before when the midwife told me what it involved (a plastic tube, needle in my hand and that my hand “might splatter a bit”!) which kind of threw me a bit, but with my hand being held by another midwife (wimp I know!) it was done shortly after. I was sat watching baby bump wriggle about like mad while having a cup of tea waiting for it to be over. Once I got home that evening, I felt completely wiped out and just had an early night, very weird experience and I just needed sleep. Walking around the maternity wards just brought it all back to me, being right next to the doors that I entered when in labour the last three times, I felt very sentimental but equally thinking ‘wow, I’m going to be here again soon, and going home with our newest baby reading to join the family’.
I found out at my midwife appointment yesterday if my iron levels had increased after being a human pin cushion on Thursday having had yet another lot of bloods taken but the poor nurse must’ve been new as she was shaking like a leaf when doing it and left me bruised like a peach! Thankfully my levels have gone higher even if only slightly, but this means i can’t be refused for the midwifery-led unit, yay! So all being well, I will deliver there, maybe even get the chance to use the pool!
Baby’s movements have changed slightly, slower but are extremely strong which sets it into very strong tightenings frequently. With three experiences of this though I’ve learned that this is just the way my body prepares and as much as its uncomfortable when trying to move (hello rock solid bump stuck on my front) it also makes me feel at ease that my body is doing its job. It’s probably why I deliver within an hour or so start to finish. Again this has been a blessing but also a shock to the system when it is such a fast process.
So with regards to labour, I’m feeling okay about it really (aside from just wanting to feel healthy prior to it). I just keep having days when I think ‘but what if it comes now?’ Kids at home, mr is working an hour away, or if I am out at the shop? It’s a bizarre feeling as it literally could happen anytime, any place. My three babies were all born spontaneously on a Wednesday night, which were all very convenient for us so I’m hoping for the same but we all know labour can be very unpredictable!
I’m just hoping, keeping a realistic mind, and just thinking that ‘what will be, will be’.
I cant help but think how my recovery will be this time all being well of course. After Phoenix’s birth, even though it was probably the easiest I did feel it took me longer to recuperate, more so physically. Obviously time is short when you already have children but with the physicality’s I felt like it took me forever for my tummy to feel okay, after-pains third time around are definitely a complete shitter, my diastasis recti will need surgery within a year or so, hoping breastfeeding will go well, and getting back into the school-run in full force will be some of the things that we’ll face, but we’ll have each other!
We did some family bonding in a different kind of scenario recently, by doing a pregnancy bump cast – what a laugh that was! the girls were amazed at how big Mummy’s tummy was, and when looking at the cast, then the amount of room in it – its crazy!
So there we have it, on Thursday I am officially 40 weeks, baby is back to back still at the moment but i’m trying to be relaxed about this as Halle was unknown back to back and only a 57minute labour from start to finish, Phoenix was back to back but turned in labour and was an hour ish so i’m keeping hopeful! We’re itching to meet our little bundle now and as much as this is a bittersweet ending to this chapter or baby growing, I am feeling ever so sentimental and grateful for all that my body has enabled me to do, and the fact we’re so lucky to get to raise our amazing children.
Here’s a round up of my baby bump photos.
Whats your guess, boy or girl? (The way i’m carrying has no answers as I’ve carried all four the same!)
I’ve been making a little time lapse throughout this pregnancy so it will be lovely to watch back in the future.
I wonder if i’ll go overdue again like the other three…. This baby seems to be trying to crawl its way out this week so who knows! ah, wish me luck 😉